broken heart

sorry for long time don updating my blog..cause my heart bleeding 2day..until i no mood to talk summore now..i just want to release my sadness through writing this blog..i hurt so much by u till i really super hyper extremely no mood now...i doesn't hear any sound even though i am listening to music..i open it until the speaker blast also no sound..maybe bcoz my world now is only a dead silent..my heart is dead...the sound i can only hear is the sound of my tears n the words u have hurt me...my heart keep bleeding now..u really hurt me much although u tel me it is just a joke...but i cant stop my heart from bleeding..i am mad n i am sad too..i don dare to tel u bcoz i scare u will left me...do u angry me now by off my phone??coz i really don wan let u know i m crying now...i scare u will frustrated about it...i scare..i really scare..u know...like someone put a knife near ur neck..u know how scary is tat??like someone try push u down from a tenth floor tower..how scary is that??n my scariness is more than that..i never so scare to lost someone before..i just wanna alone now...plz..left me alone...