Friday, October 7, 2011

Birthday




Birthday?
The most terrible birthday I have this year.
Everybody seems to forget it..
I won't blame them because that is not their fault.
And now I want to sing Happy Birthday to myself
Happy Birthday to me~
Happy Birthday to me~
Happy Birthday to Belinda~
Happy Birthday to me~

The end for my 18th birthday.


Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Recently





Since how long I have not write for this blog?sorry for that because I am busy for my another blog which is purposely for ICT assignments.Those assignments are damn annoying.But what to do?Those assignments carry a lot of marks.I have no choice but gonna do all of it.Test,assignments and presentations are getting lesser.Do i am seem happy?not at all!!Because I am going to have my Final exam for Semester 1 soon!!Its on 3 october!I am nervous.I am really tired here.I mean exhausted..I doesn't sleep well here..I have either good nor bad dream every night which make me doesn't feel rest at all.Although i have sleep early at night,i still sleep 3 hour in noon..When i wake up i feel wanna sleep again because i dreamt again..Haiz~just someone try save me don't let me dream again.Degree has entered.Its not a good news because the campus seem has a lot of students.i have to wake up two hour earlier before my class start.Just like today i go down half an hour earlier i still late because the people are so so so so many!I wait untill the 10th bus then i can enter the bus and go to campus.See the picture above?They are Gd&T.O.P..I freak them in a sudden i also dont know why.Just the feeling come in sudden.I even dreamt about T.O.P..LOL==''


Saturday, August 6, 2011

Sorry




To all my dear friends/schoolmates/housemates/roommate,
Sorry for today If I say anything wrong because I am going to have my chemistry test tomorrow so I don't like people disturbing me when I am studying.Sorry for my attitude toward all of you.And I hope time faster and I really feel very lucky after thinking back all my pass time.Anyway,May God bless all of us who is going to have their first chemistry test tomorrow!:)Got to go..Have to study now:)

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Ramadan











Oh!chinese Food!How long I didn't eat my hometown food?I miss them so much.Now,Malays start to puasa and I puasa with them also==..Cause there are no restaurant open in the morning or even afternoon.They only open when it is nearly"Buka Puasa".LOL..Hope Hare Raya faster come so that I can go back to my hometown as soon as possible!!:DD




























































Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Unforgettable week


Dear bloggie,
I am here again which is almost 2a.m.This week is the most terrible week I had.I am having three assignments and those homeworks which do contain marks and also does quiz.I am so so so tired.First day,I sleeping at 3 because i have to do my Biology assignment and my TITAS assignment.Too bad,I was too sleepy so I don't finish my TITAS assignment.Then,I wake up around 6.30a.m because I am having my class at 8a.m.That day I am so tired untill i unable to concentrate in my class.My eye is already like Panda eyes.That day night I sleep around one because I having my Malay presentation next day and I am keep memorise everything until I have no time to study for my chemistry quiz.I cried that night after pick up my dad phone.I don' t know why my tears flow out until my housemate are so shock.This is my first time I don't know why but the only thing i know is I miss my hometown.And I start to understand how my sister feel when she was studying at Mukah.These experience I never have before.My tears are like rolling down my face uncontrollably.Then,I go to cycle bicycle with my roommate and I almost knock down by a car and luckily the car stop.Thanks GOD.After that,today I am still here doing my TITAS.Its already 2a.m I don't even do until 20 slides.Besides,I still haven think about the drama i should do during the TITAS presentation.F***I am so sleepy right now.And I don't think tomorrow I can sleep early because I have to do the drama thing and practice for the presentation.I have to go Campus somemore tomorrow.Argh!Help me!

Monday, July 18, 2011

Tired

Dear bloggie,
I live in Perak and study at UPSI is almost one month.I am getting busier and busier.Everything is so rushing and I am so tired.Everything have to done within this week because next week is my holiday.First,my PTPTN haven being certify yet and I was walking around the university for almost one hour to find the place since the University is so huge.Every place i go along is like walk from my house to Taman Awam.LOL.Too bad I can't done my certify today because lack of information.I have to wait until tomorrow:(..Later,I have to go to find my TITAS lecturer to ask him about the TITAS presentation that I am going to have this Friday.Tomorrow,I have to find the place to certify my paper and also have to pass up my Mathematics exercise.I have to do my biology assignment which need to be pass up on Wednesday and my Bm presentation and home works have to be done this Wednesday too.I am having my chemistry quiz this Wednesday.Thursday I have to pass up my PTPTN form and also my ICT assignment.And last day,Friday i have to present my TITAS assignment and also have to pass up my mathematics assignment.I think it seriously will be a busy and tired week.So,to all my dear friends who want find me this week,if I don't answer or reply your message,please do forgive me because i am so busy until there will be no time for me to sleep.
Got to go now.Have to do my TITAS assignment.Bye~

Sunday, July 3, 2011

My life










This some place I used to go when in Perak:)
P.s:the camera is not really good:X

Thursday, June 30, 2011

The 13th day

Dear bloggie,
Today is a warm day>I have stay at perak for 13 days and I start to miss my home.I miss the home food .I miss my family.I miss my friends,sasa,emily,jasmine,kele,yan lin,liew,amindah,bing's brother,rachel,melody,siew git,yeo,basil,daphne,audrey,joe,tiffany,justine,yunn mei,ting and many many more!I kinda don't like the food here cause its too spicy.But i feel lucky because i have kinda and good housemates and roommate.I still haven used to the weather here because its gets dark late than in Miri and the sun come out slower too than Miri.The sky turn dark when its 8 smtg and turn bright when 7 smtg.So sometimes I still confuse about the time.Haha..I hope i can get used it.And there lot of homework,assignments and presentations here.because i enter the school late,so that a lot of work waiting for me.So,got to go now.Bye!Good luck to everyone and wish my friend,Jasmine Yee,Happy Birthday!

Monday, June 27, 2011

Dear bloggie,
Its such a long time I don't touch my blog.I have just move to a new University called the University Education of Sultan Idris.It is at Tanjung Malim,Perak.Do you see the "perak"word?Yup..What you think are right!I am away from my friends and home now.I live in the hostel.The hostel facilities is not bad.At least it like an apartment:)I miss my family and friends.I miss home food. i kinda don't like the food here since it's all spicy and i really stomachache everyday.(sasa curse me)haha!and at here everything have to done by yourself. it doesnt like secondary school anymore even an Institute also.Before this,the exercise and the notes are distribute by the teachers but now I have go to the website and print it myself.At here,if you dont check the website one day,You don't get the latest information the school authorities won't responsible because its your fault dont always check the website such as the holiday,the change of time table and so on..I just receive news that time tables changing cause me no need to eat for two days because the timetable is so pack!Help me.However,just like what i post this means nothing to me!I can go through it!Kambateh!!

Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Just let go the past and look for the future:)


This year is the worst year I ever had.Let me think..I lost a granpa then lost my closest friend.They had left the world and went to another peaceful year.And then i doesn't do well in my studies and my parents are disappoint on me and i am scare i unable to obtain the good result:(..My whole large family members doesnt seem get along well this year..Quarreling everywhere and hateness lies around them.However,i never give up my life..Maybe everytime i say i feel stress and i want to die.But i know i won't cause i know outside got bunch of people much more stressful than me.Maybe it is time to tell me that i have to start growing up..Don't be so childish anymore."You are time to enter the real world and there is no more dreamland".So,i tell myself i never give up.What can i say?since Jesus want them to left me,I also unable to do anything.If i still depressed of every bad things around me,i will never success..that what i keep on telling myself.So i am here to conclude"JUST LET GO THE PAST AND LOOK FOR THE BRIGHT FUTURE":)


XOXO,
Belinda:)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Tiffany wong,I miss you!

Dear Tiffany Wong,
这是我一个写话语在我的blogger,因为你我才写的:)我真的真的真的真的很想你。我有时候在想为何那个死的人不是我而是你。有时候我又很想上去天堂找你因为我真的觉的很累对每一个事。不管在任何方面。今天是你的生日。我真的对不起因为我没办法帮你庆祝。我真的是感到很对不起你。对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起对不起。我有时候真的很想去找你。

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I miss you a lot,Tif-funny

Dear Tiffany,
I miss you a lot.I am sorry for not going to put sky lantern for you.I am sorry for everything before this.I am sorry for rejecting you so many times because asking me to go out with you guys.I am sorry for it.Seriously.If i know this gonna happen to you,i will never reject your any invitation.Never ever.Everything about you,me and yunn mei in st joe within the two years has keep flash back in my mind todayYou use to call me "blink blink'everytime and I want hear it one more time can you call that again?.And yesterday I saw the msg you send to me.The last msg you write to me is "keep in touch"and i promise you I will but where are you now?...Rachel let me read something today and i thinking about you.Because it write people will getting lesser and everything on the earth will start to gone.And i believe it because I lose you and my grandpa this year.I know i still cannot accept the fact you and my grandpa dead since i just pretend it.Maybe one day..One day i will accept that i will lose both pf you.But i believe we will have meet again for the next thousands years.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

My only Bastard


I begin to start my new life at University of the west Scotland.My parents send me there because my result in studies very bad so they send me there in order to protect their high reputation since both of my sister and brother get PhD in the medical field.Between,my parent are very rich so they have no trouble of sending me to anywhere they want.My parent has their own hospitals at every place around the world,Malaysia,America,United kingdom and so on.I don't want to say about this anymore.I have a bunch of friends here.They are kind enough to me.They are not materialistic but they are true friends.Rrrrr...ring..ring..Okay.Recess time is over and i have to enter class now!....
I walk steadily into the lecture room and sit beside my BFFs.And i saw him.The new fresh boy.I don't know him and he don't me either.But I recognize him.I think i ever met him somewhere before but i really can't remember where and when i saw this boy.He is the first and only person let me get this weird impression to him.Teacher introduce him to everyone.His name is Max.He has a short tidy brown hair just like Justin bieber's hair=.=..His eyes is blue in colour and he has a yellow or can consider as fair skin at least his skin is fairer than me=.=""..teacher ask him to sit beside me since another side of me is an empty space.I look at him walking toward me.his eyes catch me and he smile sweetly to me.I can feel my cheek start to turn pink.F***How can that be?what happen to me??He sit down beside me and put his back pack on his lap.Then,the class start.He looks like a silent and hardworking boy.He like a good baby.My friends introduce themselves to him.
Finter:Hey,cutee boy..I know your name is Max and i am Finter.Just call me Fin.Nice to meet you.
Max:Heyy,sexy girl..its have been my pleasure to know you too,prettie..
Rose:My name is Rose.Nice to meet you,max.Have fun here.
Max;Nice to meet you too,sweetie.
Ok now.After i heard those word he says,i want to take back my words say he is a good baby or silent boy.He totally not.He is another bastard.The bastard i say here simply mean a boy that have various of girlfriends outside at different place,lie to his girlfriend or want to have a girlfriend just to having sex.And i know this Max is one of these by hearing is conversation with my friends.I am totally moron for just now blushing when he smile to me.Stupid me.While i keep bubbling in myself,Max stop me form bubbling and say..
Max:what your name,gorgeous?since we are classmates now,i will like to know your name.
Me:Sorry.my name is a secret and i am not gorgeous.crazy bastard.
Max:what??what have you call me just now?(still smiling)
Fin:I apologize for her.She is just kidding.Her name is Juliet.
I can see that fin is flirt with him.LOL.I don't know what things are in her mind.Another moron..
Max:Hahaha..Seriously you call Juliet?
Max move his gaze from fin to me.His blue eyes met me.His eyes is beautiful.Is hard for me to stop staring at his eyes.I look away from him when i suddenly realize that my friends are staring at me.
Me:is that wrong i call juliet?Yes..My name is same as the juliet in the Romeo and Juliet show.Is that funny?
Max:i don't say its funny.
Me:You are laughing just now!and your sounds like criticize my name.(angry tone)
Max:I am sorry about i am laughing>.<..I am just...just..
He burst into laughter and its make me more mad.I feel like want to kill him!I want to slice him into pieces!!When i decided to shout back at him,Max stop laughing and say..
Max:your name is beautiful.(serious tone)I am laughing because there is a dirt on your face and it make you look funny with your angry expression.(laugh again)
I am still angry.He is such a bastard!
Me:where is it??I need a mirror!
While my friends i are trying to find a mirror for me,I keep wipe my face with my hand.And then I am shock of his action..He take kleenex from his bag and wipe the dirt on my face.I am totally dumfounded.I am just look at him while he is wiping.He see me staring at him and he staring back me too.He move nearer and nearer toward me..and then when its near enough that i can hear his breathing,I began to shout.
Me:get away from me!
Everybody in the class turn to the end of the class and look at me with a question mark above their head.Miss jenny say..
Miss jenny:Anything happen?What is happening to you,juliet?
Miss jenny is staring at me.I saw angry flare in her eyes.I know miss jenny hate anybody disturb her class and her students do not concentrate when she is teaching.
Me:I am just..just..
Then,Max stand up.
Max:miss jenny,she just see a cockroach in the class on the floor just now.
Everybody..No..i mean girls jump on to their chair.And max try to hide his laughing and say..
Max:But she see wrongly.its just a black eraser.
Then,every girls go back to their seats and staring angrily at me.I can feel the anger in their eyes.
Max:Girls,don't angry.She just mistaken don't blame her.For her to apologize to all of you,she say she will treat you all free drinks this afternoon.
I give him a"WHAT THE HECK"looking.
Me:I am sorry for my disturbing.Okay.I will treat all of you free drinks.Just list down what you want in a paper and I will go buy.
I hear everybody is chattering happily and begin to state down the drinks in a paper and pass it to me.
Miss jenny:okay.Calm down.Lets go back to our lessons.
The lessons back.My friends can sense the angry aura around me so they don't dare talk to me.Besides,I am really angry about this bastard.
Max:are you angry?Don't angry.It's just drinks.Doesn't cost you a lot.
Me:don't talk to me,bastard.
Max:why are you so angry?
Me:You don't know why am i angry?you make feel shame in front of everyone!of course i not angry about the drinks!
Max:is it?i make you shame?i don't realize it.
Max is laughing at there and i am so mad at him and doesn't want to respond him anymore.he keep babbling beside me but i don't even talk to him.Then,he stop.I feel weird so I turn my face toward him.I see him taking his I phone.I see the message.He is messaging with a girl call Kate.I think its her girlfriend since the conversation in message is..
Max:where are you now?
Kate:in my classroom..
Max:i miss you.Can we meet later for lunch?
Kate:of course.I miss you too.
Max:good.I go find you later kay,babe?
Kate:alright.
When I see he start put his I phone into his bag i quickly turn to where miss jenny stand.Then,i can feel he is looking at me.I hear him murmur.
Max:I am sorry.I am sorry for making you shame in front of everyone.
I look at him.His eyes lock on mine.AGAIN.I see tears rolling in his eyes.I can sense that he really feel sorry to me then i look away and say..
Me:it's okay.
I can feel that he still looking at me.Then,the bell ring and i realize its lunch time.I stand up..
Me:Fin,Rose.Let's go canteen.I am starving.
Then,i go out quickly without waiting them or looking back because i scare i see Max's eyes again.I am scare of his eyes.His eyes is like a poison to me.I go to canteen with fin and rose.We grab some food and find a seat.Then,I saw her..KATE.She is sitting with Max.Face to face.Their table is just beside the window which not far from mine.I see kate.She is really a beautiful girl.She has a long silky black hair and brown eyes.Her skin is a bit dark but still pretty.then sunlight penetrate through the window make her more beautiful because then sunlight has clearly show her almost perfect body shape.She has a big boobies and her body line is in s shape.Most importantly,she has a long thin leg.Oh my godness!!I hope I have her body.But too bad,i don't have such a perfect body.I see Max is keep staring at her.I don't why my blood start to boil.I look away from them and talk to my friends.
Me:heyy,you guys wanna help me to buy drinks to everyone?
Fin:i am sorry.I forget to tell you guys later i have to skip class because my mum is sick.
Me:okay,never mind.How about you,rose?
Rose:i also have to get back early today.Nobody is at home and my mum just call m to get back home earlier today.
Me:where is your parents going?
Rose:They go to United kingdom for some business stuff.
Me:aren't there any workers at your house?
Rose:that why my mum ask me to get back early.She scare those workers will steal stuff.
Me:okay.Nevermind.Don't worry.
Fin:is it really okay all for your own?
Me:its okay.don't worry.:)
Then,I go to the shop nearby the school and buy every drinks listed on the paper.It's quite a lot.I am carry two big heavy plastic bag on both on my hands.Its really heavy.And its so HOT!Although the shop is just nearby the school,its seem such a long distance for me.I put down the drinks once every ten steps.Its really too heavy.I think after i carry this drinks i will have muscles at my arm.I walk and walk.It's really takes longer time than normal i go back school from the shop.I reach outside the gate of the school.I put the drinks down again.I am out of breathe and i can feel that my face has turn red.Sweat is pouring down from my head.I walk into the school.When i bound down and get my stuff,i feel my head spinning.I lose my sight and i know i going to fall down.F***,i don't want to be shame in front of the school!But i can't control myself not to drop down.Fine!whatever!just let me fall.I am exhausted also.I close my eyes and relax my body to let it fall easily.I wait and wait and wait..I wait to let my body feel the hard pavement.But its too long for me to wait,I ask in my mind why so long i haven't fall down?I open my eye and I see the familiar blue eyes again.Its Max!He is holding me in his arm
Max:Are you okay,juliet?
its the first time he call my name without laughing.It's make my body shiver a little.
Max:juliet!Can you hear me?
Me:Y..Yess..
I manage to answer him.so i pull myself out from his arm.I try to balance myself unfortunately i almost fall again.And he hold me in his arm again.
Me:I am sorry.
I still feel my head is spinning.my vision is not clear.
Max:It's okay.Let's me help you.You wait me at here.Drink this..
You give me the a can of hundred plus from the plastic bag.
Me:No.this is their drinks not mine.I am alright.
Max:don't worry.This is mine.
i take out the list and I see max has listed down a can of hundred plus.
Max:just drink it.You will feel better.
Me:Thank you.
I see him carry those drinks and jog into the school toward the classroom.I do feel better after having the drinks.I stand up from the bench where he bring me to before he walk away.Finally,I able to control my balance again.Its still early before i enter my next class.So,I go and take a walk.The day is so warm make me want to take off my shirt.Damn.The sweat keep pouring down from my face.Temperature is getting increase.So,I decided to walk back to school.Damn it.I am like a fool walking to other place then walk back to school again.Stupid me.I enter the classroom.Everyone is looking at me and say thanks to me.I smile at them and go back to my seat.
Max:where are you going just now?i ask you to wait me there.
He is annoying.So i don't care what he talking and i turn my face to another side.I am exhausted.AGAIN.I close my eyes.And then i feel breeze around me.I open my eyes and see turn to Max.He is using some paper and fans me.I am dumbfounded.
Max:do you feel better?
Me:What the heck are you doing?
Max:I am letting you feel better.You seem warm so i fans you.Too bad you don't appreciate it.
Me:are you treating like this to every girl?
Max:Nope.Only you.hahahaha!=p
I can feel myself start blushing.I ignore everything he say and turn away from him.i can feel the wind come toward me and its really let me feel better.I begin to whisper,thanks Max.And i don't know when my sight begin to disappear.I fall asleep...
When I wake up,the class has just finish and Max is gone.And I control myself not to care about it.Damn it!I still care.I walk out the class and i search him for everywhere.Then,i see him at the field with..Kate..I see they hold hand together and walk at the field.Its evening.The sky turn from blue to yellow orange.Its sun set.I see they walk around the field since there is nobody there(except me because they doesn't discover i am standing there)Suddenly,they stop.they face move closer and i know what they doing next.They kiss.And its a deep kiss.I can feel that Max really like this girl.I walk away from there.My heart feel ached.When i reach my rented house,Its night time.I lose my appetite so i go take a bath and crawl into my warm king size bed.
Its good to live alone.I no need to care about everything and plus i am rich so everyday they will be cleaner come my house.I lay down on my bed and stare at the ceiling.I begin to think about him again.Maxxx...I hate myself.I bury myself in my pillow.I tell myself not to think about him.Then my cell phone ring.I am mad.
Me:Who the F*** are you?
Unknown:are you always speaking like that on the phone?Hahahaha.
Immediately i recognize the sound and i know who is him straight away.
Me:Max??How can you get my number?
Max:Haha.I am your stalker.you didn't know that.
Me:Haha(cold laugh).Its not funny.HOW YOU GET IT?(serious tone)
Max:i took your cell phone when you were sleeping just now in the class.
Me:you touch my phone without my permission??Bastard.
Max:why?i don't even break or steal it.Hahahaha.
Me:still.You are a bastard for me.
Max:is it??I just know it.Unfortunately,I accidentally take your picture when you were sleeping just now.
Me:What the..???Delete it!!
Max:Why must I?Its cute..Just like MY sleeping beauty..(staring at Juliet's picture at another side of call)
I can feel my cheek begin to grow pink.He just say MY..Damn him!He make me...Who the hell are him?Maybe the My mean Kate.Not me.stop thinking too much i tell myself.Then I think the kissing scene between him and kate in a sudden.
Max:hello?Juliet?you still there?
Me:i am here..
Max:why you suddenly become so silent?
Me:nothing.You call me for what?
Max:I am just boring.
Me:you are too boring!
Without a good bye,I press the red button of end call and off my cell phone.I crawl back into my bed.I don't know when I begin to enter my dreamland..
Two month pass.Max is now no more new student.He become more popular in the class.He can get along with everyone without any problems.He is flirting to every girl in the class.And my classmates especially those girls including my friends are so freak to him.It's like he as popular as TOP in Big bang.Crazy..That the word i can describe to those girls.As usual,I walk into the class and go to my seat.And as usual Max run beside me and mess up my hair.He is still as usual is a bastard to me.He flirt to every girls in the class although he already has a girlfriend.Nobody in the class know he has a girlfriend.(I wonder why they don't find it)Boys in this world is always the same.Same BASTARD.
Me:Stop messing up my hair!i just comb it this morning.Bastard!
Max:You still the same and the only one call me bastard.
Me:Because you really a bastard.
I get to my seat and comb my hair.And try ignore him.But i know I can't.Because I have Fall In Love in this bastard.Argh..How can i fall in love to him.I am stupid enough.Miss jenny enter the class.Everyone go back their seat including Max.As usual,Fin and Rose are flirting with max and I am like sitting between them.
Me:Fin,Rose,both of you sit there.I sit at the side.
Rose:why?
Me:It seem like both of you like to talk to Max.So just change.
Fin:okay!(happy)
I stand up from my seat and walk to Rose seat which is at the end of the table.I know Max is staring me but i try pretend nothing.I sit at rose seat and try to focus on what miss jenny teach.Boring and tiring!I can hear fin and rose is chatting happily with Max.Its make me a bit jealous.How can he be that popular among girls?Shit la.After three hours class,bells rings sense its time to back home.I stand up from my seat.
Me:I go back first.I have something to do.See ya tomorrow.
Without waiting their replying,I walk out from the class.Damn again.Its raining cats and dogs.How am i going back?I don't even has an umbrella.I stand at the foyer.I am thinking wanna waiting for the rain stop or what.I go back to my private drawer in school and put all my stuff inside there.Then i walk back to foyer again.Since i am going to shower after this,it's doesn't make different i go under rain.So i just walk under the rain without an umbrella.Half way back to my house,a sport car pass by and splash the water on the road me.
Me:F*** you!(shout)
I see my shirt is wet and dirty.Argh..Today is a terrible day for me.I continue walk back home and i hear someone hon behind me.I look back.
Max:why are you walking under the rain??
I can see he is worrying me from his blue eyes.
Me:Don't care about me.Just go away,bastard.
Max:What are you doing?You are wet!Just get into the car!
Me:I Can't!
Max:WHY??!!
Me:I will makes your car dirty.And I don't want!!
Max:Just get your ass to my car!!I don't mind whether my car is dirty or not!if its dirty i can just buy another new car!The most i care is YOU!Juliet,You will sick!You are the only one for me!there is no another you!
I am quite shock and touch by his words.He really care about me.I am shout back to him under the rain.
Me:Just go.You no need to worry.
I walk pass his car without looking back.If not I don't want is I don't dare.I scare if I look back I can't control myself.I telling myself,"he has kate.I cannot let him be mine.I don't want be that kind of girl.He is Kate's boyfriend".Then,I heard some footsteps running toward me.I have no time to turn back and i feel Max is carrying me.(princess hug)
Max:I tell you to get your ass into my car.
He see me angrily with his blue eyes.i see worriness in his eyes.I just keep staring at him.He is wet too.He is wet because of me.His hair is wet.His white clothes is wet till the shirt turns into transparent.His body is so muscular.I can see six packs on his body.He put me down at the front seat and he get himself back to the car.He off the air-conditioner and start drive his car.He looks sexy with his muscular body.I can't stop myself staring at him.suddenly,he stop in front of Killingly plaza.
Me:Why are you stopping?
Max:wait in the car a while.
He run down under the rain and get into the shopping mall.within 15 minutes,he come with a plastic beg in his hand.he enter the car.He take a jacket from the plastic bag and put it around me.I am touched.
Me:how about you?You are wet too.
I am worry about him.Seriously.
Max:are you worry about me?hahaha.
He is laughing like a kid and i can feel my blood start rushing.
Me:YES!I AM WORRY ABOUT YOU!
I say angrily to him.He look shock.I don't even know i am crying until I feel my tears drop on my palm.without hesititation,I take off the jacket and give him.I look away from him.I can feel he put back the jacket to me.I can hear he murmur.
Max:I am sorry.I don't mean it.
He turn me to him.He cupped my face.Slowly,he using kleenex and wipe off my tears.I keep staring at him.
Max:I am really sorry...Please don't cry,okay?I don't like to see you crying.
He still continue wipe my tear.And i can feel he getting nearer and nearer to me.My heart beat much more faster than normal.I keep looking at his eye and he looking at mine too.Its so near i can feel his breathe rate.His lips almost meet mine.And suddenly,the image of kate is in my mind so i Move my face away.He look shock and disappoint and take his hand off from my face.He continue his driving.I am sorry,Max.I can't.You have Kate.I say in my heart.Then,i reach my home.
Me:thank you.
when i decide get down..
Max:wait a while.Take this.
He is not only buy jacket for me but also an umbrella.I really touch by his action.Tears rolling in my eyes.
Max:Never get under the rain again..I BEGGED YOU...
He is really worry about me.I am not saying okay and i walk down from the car.I walk to his car seat and open the door.
Me:Get down.
Max:why?
Me:just get down.
Max just follow what i say and get down from his car.I take him into my house.I give him a towel.
Me:Walk straight from here and turn left to the corner you will see a bathroom.Go bath.
Max:you?
Me:I will use the shower room in my room.
Max: I don't have extra shirt.
Oh My god!I don't think about this.Luckily,there is a small market in front my house.
Me:you go bath first.i will give you a shirt later.
Max just did what i say.I go out the house.Its still raining.Damn!I such a moron.i don't bring an umbrella.AGAIN.Argh,Don't care anymore.since i am wet also.I run to the shop and simply buy a t shirt and a three quarter pant and run back to my house.I heard Max have finish bath so its no time for me to bath.I rush to my room and change my wet clothes into dry singlet and a short.I take the shirt and pant and walk toward the bathroom.I sneezing before I reach the bathroom.I knock the door.
Me:max,I have bring you some dry shirt and pant.
Max open the door and i see he peeked out from the door.He takes the shirt.
Max:thank you.
I wait at the living room.and max come out with a wet towel.Luckily,the clothes are just suit to him.I see his hair wet.
Me:come here.
Max follow my instruction and sit beside me.i take the towel from him.
Me:lower your head.
Max lower his head and i help him dry his hair.then,I go into my room and take the hair dryer to dry his hair.10 minutes pass.
Me:okay.You are fresh and clean now.=)
Max:thank you.
Me:do you want some hot coffee or what?
Max:just give me a cup of hot tea.Thanks.
I go to the kitchen to make a pot of tea.My body is shivering.I forget change my inner wear.There are still wet.I start feel cold.My hand is freezing.Suddenly,Max hug me from behind.He kiss softly on my hair.I am shock.But i pray to God just this time.Let him hug me..
He pull off his hand.
Max:you are still wet.
I smile at him.
Me:i just accidentally splash water on myself when i make the tea.
Max:just go dry yourself.I will take the tea to the living room.
I pretend go to the living room and dry myself with the hair dryer.Max take the pot of tea out and pour me one cup.
Me:thanks.
He smile at me.That evening,we chat everything about our past.Then,he go back home at night.I just know his father is my father friends.i mean very close friends.They have been cooperate so much in business.No wonder i have see him familiar because we have meet when we are kid.I am glad my family is having a good relationship with his family so that i won't have such a family issue like what drama always doing when i get together with him.TOGETHER..How can this word appear in my mind?it's impossible for me to be together this crazy bastard...
I sleep early that time.I even lazy to go shower.I don't have any energy to bath anymore.I crawl into my bed and my world gone black within a minute.The next day i wake up,the clock show 10a.m.I will be late to the school i tell myself.I try wake up but i feel dizzy.I call fin
Me:hello,Fin?
Fin:juliet!where are you??the first class is miss jenny.She will be mad if you escape her class!
Me:tell her i don't feel well.I won't go school today.
Fin:are you okay?Your sounds not good.
Me:I am alright.I just need have rest.
Fin:Okay then.You take care.
Me:okay.
I put my phone beside the bed and i heard my phone drop but i don't have energy to pick it up.My body feel weak.Again,i close my eye and fall into my dream lands...
When i wake up,someone is in my house.There is a towel on my head.I use all the strength left and walk down.I smell something delicious.I thought is the cleaner.i walk into the kitchen and i see his back.Max..He catch my appearance.
Max:why are you get down?Get into your bed.
Me:What are you doing?(weak sound)
Max: i am making some porridge for you.You don't take your breakfast and lunch.Your stomach empty so i cook some to you.
Me:okay.
I sit on the chair in the kitchen and looking his back.
Me:I feel weird.How can you enter my house?
Max;Your cleaner open it for me.
Me:where is she?
Max:I ask her to left after help you clean your body and change yous clothes including your inner wear.Don't worry,I don't see anything.
Me:I..
Max take the hot porridge and put it on the table.
Max:Eat some.
Me:thank you.How do you know I am sick?
Max:Fin tell me.
Me:argh..She is such a busybody.
Max:don't blame her.she is just worry about you.
I take a scoop of my porridge.
Max:why don't you go bath yesterday?And you don't tell me.
I making him worry AGAIN.
Me:i go buy your shirt and pant.When i back,I see you almost done so I don't take my shower.
Max:then why don't you take an umbrella??I just buy it for you!
I can hear he is start to get mad.
Me:I forget...Wait..How you know all those stuff??
I put down my spoon.
Max:When your cleaner open the door for me,I rush into your room and saw your wet shirt on the floor.Your hair still a bit damp and when yesterday i hugged you i can feel the wetness of your inner wear.I am not STUPID!!
He looks really angry.suddenly i feel sorry.
Max:Why are you lying at me??!!and why don't you tell me when we are chatting yesterday??!!!
I look down at the table..
Me:I am sorry.I am just don't want you worry about me.I just..
Suddenly i feel the strength he pull me toward him.His arm put around me.
Max:Please,I beg you..Don't make me worry about you anymore.Please.Don't do it again.I beg you..
He pull me back so that he able to see my face.I am shock.He is crying.His tears just roll down from his eyes.Automatically,i use my finger and wipe away his tear.
Me:why are you crying?don't cry..I promise I won't do it again..
Max:are you stupid??I am worry about you.i am really worry about you.
He hugged me back again.Then,he bring me to my room(princess hug) and put me down on my bed.He put the blanket at me.I am shock for what I saying.
Me:don't go.Stay here with me.
He smile at me and crawl into my king size bed.he put his arm under my head and i sleep on his chest.I put my hand on his muscular chest.He pull me closely to him.
Max:are you cold?
He pull the blanket more on me without waiting for my answer.
Me:No.I feel warm by sleeping with you.
I look move my head upward to enable to see his face.He look at me too.He give me a soft kiss on my forehead and I close my eyes.Within a minute,I fall asleep again..
When i wake up,Max is gone.Maybe he go find Kate i tell myself.I eat the porridge left over and take a shower.I brush my teeth and go back sleep again after taking some paracetamol.Few days pass..Normal day at school.Max seem like nothing happen and as usual he mess up my hair again..

Max:Are you going anywhere for your lunch?

Me:i am not taking lunch today.

Max:why?keep fit?

Me:I lose my appetite just now because of you,bastard!

The truth is really because I am keep fit.I want to have an almost perfect body line like Kate.

Max:Haha.Is it?For me to apologize,i bring you to one place later.I can confirm you will sure have a big appetite later.

Me:HUH???where are you going to bring me?

Max ignore me.I can't reject him either.I know I have fall in love in him deeply its just i don't want to admit it because he has kate and he is such a bastard...

Lunch time.

Max:let's go!we gonna go to a wonderful place.

He ignore the fact that there are still other people in the class and pull my hand while carrying his beg.I can see there are dozen of eyes are staring at me.Max pull me out and toward his car.I saw Kate and she saw us too.Max doesn't see her and pull me to his car.we drive away.Max has just bring me to a lavender farm.Its pretty.There are a restaurant beside the lavender farm.When i go down from the car which Max has just open for me,I can smell the aroma of lavender when the wind blow toward where i stand.Its smell nice.Its let me feel peace.This place is really cool.Its marvelous!

Max:let's go in.I am starving.Let's get something to eat.

I follow him and enter the restaurant.the waiter seem shock when see him.

Waiter:Owh,Mr Traver.Welcome!

Max:just call me Max.

Waiter:Its not good we call Mr Traver that way.Your father are our big boss.Its seem so long you dont come here,sir.

Max:Hahaha.I just busy recently.Give me the most famous meal here.Fast please..I am hungry until i can eat the whole chicken.

Max give a wink to the waiter and make the waiter blush.He turn to me.

Max:let's go find a seat.

We find a seat outside the restaurant.The smell of lavender is everywhere.The sun shine brightly toward those purple lavender and it make the place looks more beautiful.Within 15 minutes,the meals come.Its two plates of black pepper steak,two glass of red wine and a bowl of vegetable salad.Its seem delicious.I take my knife and fork and begin to cut the steak.Unfortunately,I dont know how to use it because in my house my private chef will cut the steak before put it on the dining table.I try to slice the steak again and again but its really hard to use it.Dang!i really dont know how to use so i begin to give up.I dont want eat anymore.Without a word,Max exchange his steak to me.

Max:take this.i already slice into small size.

I look at him.His blue eye catch me again.I look down at the plate.I murmured,

Me:thank you.

He smile sweetly at me and i froze.When I look him clearly,he is really a handsome boy.I think I am crazy.how can i say that?I am moron.The lavender smell make me become a moron.however,I can't left my gaze from the lavender.There are too pretty.I am looking at those lavender while i am eating.

Max:do you want to have a walk there?

He point at the lavender farm.

Me:can we?

Max:Hahaha!Of course we can.Let's go!

Again,he takes my hand and we walk to the lavender farm.He still hold my hand tightly when we are walking at the lavender farm.I can feel the warmth in his palm.i like this feeling.I take off my hand from him when i suddenly realize that he has kate.He look at me.And i think i see disappointment in his eyes.He look away from me.i try to change the atmosphere..

Me:are this lavender farm is your father too?

Max:yupp.My father is the owner.

Me:it's pretty.It make my mind feel peace.

Max:yes.I always come this place whenever i have trouble to relax my mind.

Me:I like this place too.Do you meet any trouble today?

Max:No..

Me:then,why you bring me here?

I am waiting for his answer.He looks like he is thinking for answer and finally he say..

Max:Because I want bring you here..

i can fell my heartbeat beat twice..

Me:why?

Max:Because I want to let the person I love see this.

I am shock of his words.I stunned.He move nearer to me.He go nearer to my face and i feel his breathing rate.His lips meet mine.its a soft kiss and a sweetest kiss.I react by kissing him back.He kiss me more deeply when he find me kissing him back.He hug me too while kissing me.His hand put around my waist and i put my my hand at his shoulder..We kiss around those lavender.Its so romantic!At least for me it is.We go back to school after that.While driving,he keep held my hand to him.I feel delighted now.He keep looking at me every minute not is every five second.He smile at me.He is cute.He is mine.He is mine.I keep telling myself.Then i suddenly remember her...Kate.i take my hand off from him.He look at me with worry.

Me:I can't do this.You have a girlfriend.

Max:I have a girlfriend??

Me:Kate.I see you message her and kiss her at the field.

Max:Owh.Katerina.She is not my girlfriend.

Me:You are lying!I see you kiss her at the field!!

Max:She really not my girlfriend.He is my TWIN brother,Mike girlfriend.See!they just at there.

He point to the school foyer where we just reach.I see kate and a boy.The boy is totally photocopy of Max!

Max:see!I don't lie you..

Me:what about the message??I see you call Kate babe and you say you miss her!

Max:because i just forward what my brother say to her.You only see the back part you don't see the front part.

He show me the message in his I phone.He really don't lie me.Is really his brother ask him to message kate.I am shock.Totally shock.I stare at him.

Max:you think Kate is my girlfriend??hahahaha!don't worry you are not the first one.Many people recognize wrongly between me and my brothers.=)

Me:bastard!you this liar!you make me suffer.

I face down the car seat and my tears begin to drop on the seat.Max cupped my face and face to him.He hold my hand and put on his heart.I can feel his heart beating.

Max:my heart belongs to you,juliet.From the first time i enter this school,I have fall in love to you.I never see such a beautiful girl before.You are my destiny lover and i never let go you anymore.I love you,juliet.

Me:i love you too,Bastard.

I automatically move closer to him and kiss deeply.I stop in a sudden and say..

Me:only me can call you bastard.Nobody is allow to call you bastard except me.

Max smile gorgeously at me and say..

Max:of course you are the only one who allow call me bastard,my lover.

He kiss me again.We ignore the fact that every students are looking at through the car window and we kiss more passionately.And all of you can find your own bastard too.=)


*THE END*



*Please give me some comment.Please please please.I f don't want give then let me know you have read.I want to know how much people have read.Please...Thanks<3

XOXO,

Belle.
























Thursday, April 7, 2011

The true side of me

Dear bloggie,
I try to make myself busy everyday.At institute,i listen what teacher teach and i try to talk as much as possible whenever the teacher stop.I don't want let myself stop even a second to think about everything happen in my life.My life is such a disaster.I scare if i stop down myself and think about what happen in my life recently,i scare my tears will drop down without my knowing.I thanks to all my friends at RIT,sasa,rachel,melody,basil,yeo,siew git,audrey,samuel and others.They really make me laugh sometimes.What can I say?They are good friends for me.So,thanks friends!especially Sasa and Samuel.they bring a lot of laughter to me.They make me laugh.At least they let me forget about what happen to my life even its only five second.I hope they never see the truth of me.I don't want they worry.I can't sleep well every night so there is always no enough sleep to me.Maybe sometimes i pretend everything is okay but in my deep heart i know I am not alright at all.I still can't accept everything happen to my life.Maybe I look alright from the surface but i am just...So,please don't let me stop talking to you guys except when teacher teaching.Sometimes,during class,I am not like who I am..I stop talking and is just keep quiet there.And during this moment,I am just keep thinking about my life.It's look like i am concentrate in the class but sometimes i am not.My body is in the class but my soul is just somewhere else.So sorry my friend if i suddenly don't talk to you or what.My grandpa dead and my best friend dead,tiffany.Then,who is the next one?i have this to myself everytime whenever i stop.Is it me?why don't i am the one who die?if my death can let both of them alive,then i rather sacrisfy.But i know it is impossible.Evn i dead,they won't be back anymore.Anymore in my life.What can i do is just pray for the them and talk to them every night.

Monday, March 28, 2011

Everything gonna be okay



Do you this cute little girl above?her name is tiffany.I remember this photo is taken when we are having band practice.I think is when we are form 2.i think that having some activities at KRP there and she ask me to help her take picture.she is funny and cute.And now she is gone.She go to Jesus there with my grandpas.I believe she is safe now.But i still don't believe she is gone although i have went to her house twice time.I went to her house this noon with basil,yeo,brandon,sasa and samuel.I don't cry because she looks like she is sleeping so i don't want to cry in front of her again.We enter the house and brandon is the first person cry and he walk out from the house while i see basil cry too and its the first time to see that.While samueal and yeo doesn't cry because i know they trying to hold back their tears.i know they dont want to cry in front of tiffany.then we go back school.Sasa and i both lose our appetite so we only eat two piece of bread.We enter the class.None of us is talking except samuel because he is not really close to her so i don't mind about it.Anyway,Thanks to BRANDON who is crying there make me cry too.And i know basil is crying too just he dont let us see.Tiffany,does you se it?your friend are waiting for you and yet you left us so soon.I knwo i can't force you to come back but i hope i can spend more time with you before this.TIFFANY,MAY YOU REST IN PEACE.

XOXO,
Belle.

Saturday, March 26, 2011

What the hell is happening to my life right now?

This week is a totally terrible week for me.I lost my beloved grandpa two days ago and i am just crying like hell when i visit him at hospital at sibu.I am regret i don't go to his funeral because its hard for me to arrange my time.I am glad to see my Spm result and the same day i am sad because my grandpa funeral is on the same day too.I thanks to my grandpa has bless me.But at the same day,i meet one of my friends call tiffany.She is happy for me for me and hug me while congratz me for the results.I thanks to her.I never know that is our last hug and our last conversation.if i know it,i wont let her go from me.And now I lost her.She is gone.This is what everyone tell me and i see it on newspaper too.But i choose not to believe so i don't cry unless i see her death body.I don't want to accept the fate i lose my two beloved person in a week.I never accept this so I won't cry in front of everyone!not until i see her real body..


XOXO,
belle

Monday, March 21, 2011

Sadness all over around me

Dear bloggie,
Sorry for so long not to updating my blog.Do you see the picture above?i hope to stand there too.I need a place that can make me forget everything even for 30 seconds is more than enough.There are too many things happen for the past few days.Sadness is fly around the atmosphere.I don't know how many litres has just flow out from my eyes.I can't control myself.God,please do listen to my prayer.My grandpa dead and i am not going back tomorrow because i scare i cant catch up my studies,i have to take my spm result and my dad ask me not to go too since he wants me to take care home.But I feel my guityness in my heart because i don't go attend his funeral.Am i too selfish?Please tell me what to do right now.I think i am selfish.I know i will regret forever.

Friday, February 11, 2011

Memories

Heyy,
Its quite a long time I don't update my blog except for writing stories=X..Do you see the picture next to it?Its my beloved softball teammates.And I miss them a lot.And the softball ball,bats and glove too.No matter how much I hurt,i never feel pain because i know what i do is worth.Now,I miss them.I hope one day I can go back and play for one round again.I never forget you all=D