Dear bloggie,I try to make myself busy everyday.At institute,i listen what teacher teach and i try to talk as much as possible whenever the teacher stop.I don't want let myself stop even a second to think about everything happen in my life.My life is such a disaster.I scare if i stop down myself and think about what happen in my life recently,i scare my tears will drop down without my knowing.I thanks to all my friends at RIT,sasa,rachel,melody,basil,yeo,siew git,audrey,samuel and others.They really make me laugh sometimes.What can I say?They are good friends for me.So,thanks friends!especially Sasa and Samuel.they bring a lot of laughter to me.They make me laugh.At least they let me forget about what happen to my life even its only five second.I hope they never see the truth of me.I don't want they worry.I can't sleep well every night so there is always no enough sleep to me.Maybe sometimes i pretend everything is okay but in my deep heart i know I am not alright at all.I still can't accept everything happen to my life.Maybe I look alright from the surface but i am just...So,please don't let me stop talking to you guys except when teacher teaching.Sometimes,during class,I am not like who I am..I stop talking and is just keep quiet there.And during this moment,I am just keep thinking about my life.It's look like i am concentrate in the class but sometimes i am not.My body is in the class but my soul is just somewhere else.So sorry my friend if i suddenly don't talk to you or what.My grandpa dead and my best friend dead,tiffany.Then,who is the next one?i have this to myself everytime whenever i stop.Is it me?why don't i am the one who die?if my death can let both of them alive,then i rather sacrisfy.But i know it is impossible.Evn i dead,they won't be back anymore.Anymore in my life.What can i do is just pray for the them and talk to them every night.
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