Sometimes~

Sometimes.I really feeling me not like me.Sometimes i feel i just a doll which can easier can control by others.Sometimes I don't feel like i am not belongs to this family to this earth and to this world.Sometimes i am thinking negatively about everything.So,I have to be apologize to Jesus EVERY TIME.Sometimes,I am tired to live on this earth.Sometimes,I am tired of the people surrounding me because i have to act in front of them.Sometimes,I have to show my sweetest smile to them although my heart has hurt deep by them in the same time.Sometimes,i have to lie them that sand enters my eyes or the food is too spicy when my one of my tears drop without my knowing.Sometimes,they believe my lying but sometimes they not.Sometimes,i feel like i have no choice in my life.Every time i did any decision or choice,i have to think of my parents choice.I know and I get it i am not a good daughter.I cannot reach your goal and I know you have put so much hope on me.Sometimes,i cry under my blanket without anyone knowing because sometimes i am feeling to depressed.Sometimes,i am scare in enter adult world.Sometimes,i wish to enter it too.Sometimes,the adult world looks scary and sometimes it looks fun too.But who can answer all my sometimes?Nobody know and only god know.Conclusion,i tell myself not to think too much and believe them and give them all your trust because they are the person who has a strong bond with you."NO PAIN NO GAIN,NO GUT NO GLORY"In this curious world,there are still having question that never be answer by human although how smart or how genius you are.So never laugh or look down at those people who are lack of studying because they are human being that like you too.God is always fair to everyone.