Tired

I,belinda tang is really tired now.I know.i know.My parent are more tired than me.I know i have choose a hard pathway.I know it.I know i choose become a pharmacy.I know its a hard pathway.I know.i know what are you guys thinking.And i am scare too.I scare i choose wrong pathway.I scare i will give up halfway.I am scare too.I am scare to waste your guy money.I am scare.I am scare to death.I am scare than anyone of you.Nobody is more scare than me.But you guys don't know how scare am i.Although you guys don't say so clear to ask me become a teacher,i know what is in your mind.I am not that stupid.i know in the family i am the most stupid children.I know.I know that.But i am not stupid until that.Sometimes,actually i know it and understand it but just wan to make my lovely family members happy,i pretend don't know anything.Although being say stupid,when see you guys smile,i rather being say stupid.Just because i want a happy family,Its that hard?its that wrong?I know i am not the best daughter but i just want to give my family the best.I study because of my parents.Now,i want study pharmacist also because want to earn more money an give my parents a good life.Is that wrong?Yes.I am scare.I am scare i can't read all along to become a pharmacist.I really scare.Yes.I know i am useless.I do anything you guys never appreciate it.But i tell myself you all are my family so i have to stand for it.I cant blame all of you.Sometimes,i am pissed off because you guys have really made me angry and hurt too.How any times i have to cry for you guys?i ever want to cry in front all of you but i tell myself i have to stand it because o don't want you guys too worry about me.I don't want to become your burden.I really don't want to become a burden in this family.If you want me to become a teacher then i go become teacher.I am really tired..